Breaking our Prayers

She is guided in a moment without intervention from
human beings who fall short too often
Her change of heart is miraculous not probable
But by God it is always possible

She is my sister too and I smile but
my heart remains with another just the same
Been the same for so long I wait
And the weight takes its tole
She will be saved on a day untold

My sister waits in agony of dreams unfulfilled
Lives that she cannot bring herself to live
Lies that have built around her of stone
Of bones crushed by the weight of sujood
Of so much ,so little done for you

I am fundamentally flawed
Perhaps my prayers lack sincerity
They cannot reach the place they need to be
Intentions, apprehensions , compulsion to ask
Please do not take me to task for
I love, I really do , I seek I am a seeker true
I forget miserably but turn back to you

We all hang on for dear life to
Driftwood rotting beneath the palms
These eyes could look a little lower
This tongue could speak a little less
This body could find modesty in its dress
These hands could stop the shaking
This smile could find its place
These feet could run to prayer
This heart could become straight

Suffiyan At-Thawri answering the question "why does Allah not answer my prayer"
1- You know Allah(swt) YET you disobey Him.
2- You recite the Quran YET you dont act according to it.
3- You know shaitan YET you have agreed with him.
4- You proclaim your love of the messenger(saw) of Allah(swt) YET you abandon his Sunnah.
5- You proclain your love for Paradise YET you do not act to gain it.
6- You proclaim your fear of the Fire YET you do not prevent yourselves from sins.
7- You say indeed death is true YET you have not done anything to prepare for it.
8- You point out the faults of others YET you do not look at your own faults.
9- You eat of that which Allah(swt) has provided for you YET you do not thank Him(swt).
10- You bury your dead YET you do not take a lesson from it.


"When my servants ask you concerning me, (tell them) I am indeed close (to them). I listen to the prayer of every suppliant when he calls on me."
 [Quran 2:186] 

 “When the son of Adam gets up in the morning, all the limbs humble themselves before the tongue and say: “Fear Allah for our sake because we are with you: (i.e., we will be rewarded or punished as a result of
what you do) if you are straight, we will be straight; and if you are crooked, we will become crooked.”
 Reported by Abu Said Al Khudri (r.a.) Hadith 1521 At-Tirmidhi 

“O Turner of the hearts, make my heart steadfast in adhering to Your religion.”
At-Tirmidhi