Please

I wrote this piece several months ago,near enough a year, and yet it feels like I could have written this just the other day. 

Quiet and reserved 

Or is it shy and unconcerned

Is it a crisp autumn breeze?

Or is it dead falling leaves

A big hearty laugh

Or just another façade

Everything will be okay

Or is it just a brave face

Is it easier to worry

About everyone else

Don’t look in the mirror

Don’t think about yourself

Do you want to speak

But the words have gone away

Is it a breathtaking sunset

Or just the end of a day

Do your eyes swell with tears?

And you can no longer see

You stumble, trip and fall,

Lay dead on your knees

If I hold out a hand

How long will I wait

You know I’m there

Why do you hesitate?

Can’t you see what you’re doing?

Or do you not really care

For as long as my pain is silent

Then it's not really there

Perhaps you see a rainbow

I just see a rainy day

Perhaps you’re truly happy

Then why is everything grey

Years of memories turn to dust

Am I just a faded photo

Of someone you should recognise

From a time so long ago

I can’t describe, what I can’t understand

Why do we smile? Why do we pretend? 

If I could only find the words

Then maybe this would all end