Monday, 28 January 2013

Stay Strong

Her eyes well defined of love so repressed
She had fought back tears, lowered heads and unanswered texts
These years had drifted by in flightless hope
She had dreamed a dream which found its way
Through her mind in endless sleep

Oh, her heart was given to another
A second in his hands
Little shards of glass
Cut messages of how it could've been

Abstinence was neither cure nor true prevention
But intentions to do this right ran high
Higher and higher in rank ,these feet would numb
To run to eternity but there was no need
Because her heart was molten love

Her heart was a heat that burnt through false dreams
It was sincere belief that these upturned palms
Could never be returned to her empty
Liquid glass she shaped
Making prayers not dreams
Whispering to Him because he had already heard and seen

This was not a case of forget and move on
This was a reminder , so remember
This is time for your surrender
Because destiny breathes through glorious decree
Sweet airs of piety

“And among His signs is that He created for you mates from among yourselves, that ye may dwell in tranquility with them and He has put love and mercy between your (hearts). Verily in that are signs for those who reflect.”
Ar Room 30:21

“There is nothing better for two who love each other than marriage.”
Sahih Al-Jami`, 5200

“When we speak of rulings of love, we must describe two things. One is optional and one is not. The optional love is what leads to love (eyesight, association, etc.) and this is the love that you have to beware of (for it may lead to unlawful acts.) The non optional love, if it happens by the sudden look, or natural passions that develop, you cannot be blamed for it, but it’s how you react to it that Allah will hold you to accountable for.”
Ibn Qayyim

The Messenger peace be upon him said “If a man whose practice of the religion satisfies you, asks you for your daughter in marriage, you should marry them; otherwise there will be corruption in the land.”
Tirmidhi Hasan

“The finest quality that a man can display in Love is continence: to abstain from sin and all indecency. For so he will prove himself to be not indifferent to the heavenly reward, that eternal bliss reserved by God for those who dwell in His everlasting kingdom, neither will he disobey his Master Who has been so gracious to him, in appointing him to be a creature worthy to receive His commandments and prohibitions, Who sent unto him His Messengers, and caused His Word to be immovably established with him-all this as a mark of His care for us, and His benevolence towards us.”
Tawq Al Hamamah-Ibn Hazm

We were with the Prophet while we were young and had no wealth whatever. So Allah's Apostle said, "O young people! Whoever among you can marry, should marry, because it helps him lower his gaze and guard his modesty (i.e. his private parts from committing illegal sexual intercourse etc.), and whoever is not able to marry, should fast, as fasting diminishes his sexual power."

I am as My servant thinks I am . I am with him when he makes mention of Me. If he makes mention of Me to himself, I make mention of him to Myself; and if he makes mention of Me in an assembly, I make mention of him in an assembly better than it. And if he draws near to Me an arm's length, I draw near to him a fathom's length. And if he comes to Me walking, I go to him at speed.
Hadith Qudsi

Friday, 25 January 2013


Patience is the silence that fills the space between you and I
It has coddled me gently into an open eyed sleep where
Dreams are as real as you want them to be

The thing about patience is that it is there with everything else
It will cup the tears in upturned palms and whisper soft truths
Slowly breaking through perceptions and reminding that
Indeed the author of your story is All-merciful

"Patiently, then, persevere - for the Promise of Allah is true, and ask forgiveness for your faults, and celebrate the praises of your Lord in the evening and in the morning."

"Verily man is in loss, except such as have faith, and do righteous deeds, and join together in the mutual enjoining of truth, and of patience and constancy."

"Seek Allah's help with patient perseverance and prayer. It is indeed hard except for those who are humble."

"Oh you who believe! Seek help with patient perseverance and prayer, for God is with those who patiently persevere."

Ali reported: We were in a funeral in the graveyard of Gharqad that Allah's Messenger (may peace be upon him) came to us and we sat around him. He had a stick with him. He lowered his head and began to scratch the earth with his stick, and then raid: There is not one amongst you whom a scat in Paradise or Hell has not been allotted and about whom it has not been written down whether he would be an evil person or a blessed person. A person said: Allah's Messenger, should we not then depend upon our destiny and abandon our deeds? Thereupon he said: Acts of everyone will be facilitated in, that which has been created for him so that whoever belongs to the company of the blessed will have good works made easier for him and whoever belongs to the unfortunate ones will have evil acts made easier for him. He then recited this verse (from the Qur'an): "Then, who gives to the needy and guards against evil and accepts the excellent (the truth of Islam and the path of righteousness it prescribes), We shall make easy for him the easy end and who is miserly and considers himself above need, We shall make easy for him the difficult end". (XCii. 5-10).
Sahih Bukhari

Next Friday

I have found my mistakes lingering
In these narrow corridors and I
Am stuck behind the queue
These shoulders are weightless not wanting
To bump into my mis-fortunate history of
Blank faces stripped of all life due
To the weakness on my behalf

They talk of a girl so similar to her
One fading in and out of reality
The one who searched and
Found with closed eyes the
Causing of her demise
There is no advice
Save her

One by one
One day it will be us
Eight-six thousand four hundred
Seconds of prayer later
These mistakes will finally move and
We will be lowered heads,
Finding speed in feet and hearts
Who will arrive so readily into
A much missed prayer room

Narrated Abu Hurairah (RA): Allah’s Messenger (SAW) talked about Friday and said:
'There is an hour on Friday and if a Muslim gets it while offering Salat (prayer) and asks something from Allah (SWT), then Allah (SWT) will definitely meet his demand.' And he (the Prophet (SAW) pointed out the shortness of that particular time with his hands.
Sahih al-Bukhari

Thursday, 24 January 2013

Blue Coat

The Story of my Life Part V

There are icy paths between you
And eyes set on the horizon
I feel sorry for my feet sometimes
They never know whether to listen to
My heart and my mind in conflict
Swapping sides, thinking, feeling
Knowing pales to believing

I cannot grip these slippery thoughts
I stare at these feet wondering why
The distance does not decrease
You are still some blue blur mixing
With the sky tonight, I pray
For rain because
You are gone

How typical is this of you to be
Just between these fingers
But you are no metaphor locked between
These stanzas don't do justice to how real
Everything becomes
Over time
I will slip again and again
The snow will melt and so will I
Little pools of prayer, of sadness at your feet
Then maybe you will see
Everything that I have seen

Sunday, 20 January 2013


We are intertwined into this quilt of life
Puncturing through my being , leaving
Little holes you fill so readily with memories
I have lost myself in you all
Coloured threads sitting together
In this pseudo joy and warmth
Fraying at the corners of our individuality
Your history blurs with mine
We are a knotted mess of friends
Of loose ends lost from time to time

One cut, a snip
This fabric rips

To die this death alone
To know that every interaction with humanity
Can never weave me back  into
The place of eternity
Will you remember me
Does it matter
We are but silent weeping
Threads falling amongst dusty air
I lost myself amongst you all
And I , I am terrified at what I will find
When all matter has settled

And all matters are settled

And fear a Day when no soul will suffice for another soul at all, and no compensation will be accepted from it, nor will any intercession benefit it, nor will they be aided.

Saturday, 5 January 2013

Back in our Jahiliyyah

Text Message Part III

One hundred and something characters break this heart
One fajr two Ramadans passed
You were tiptoeing religiously just like we used to

Back in my jahiliyyah is our once upon a time
Back when we started practicing, rehearsing
The words were foreign on the tongue
Acting more religious than we felt hoping
This make believe would become reality

There were salaahs prayed for the first time
Truly lifting burdens from our minds
We were converts into a religion we were born into
Open ears to our first youtube sheikh
Suddenly the pieces fell into place
An imaan boost after a decade of waiting not
Doing as much as we could now

Do you remember that first awkward
Moment of trying to improve
It became natural so soon for our souls
Do you remember reading the fiqh of wudhu
Because you actually cared and
Sticking your fingers in your ears when
Music played from cars because
You gave it up for Allah
Lopsided scarves, black socks and
Early morning Quran and mouldy miswaaks

We'd been living on our knees
Crawling but then we finally thought
To walk, to run, to live

She was so close to coming too
Things started falling for her too
But she chose a different place
Oh how I wish she would've waited
Teetering steps were short lived
Yes we'd still buckle and cry and laugh
But we found our feet,
We found our path
We found our hearts

O People of the Scripture, there has come to you Our Messenger making clear to you much of what you used to conceal of the Scripture and overlooking much. There has come to you from Allah a light and a clear Book.By which Allah guides those who pursue His pleasure to the ways of peace and brings them out from darknesses into the light, by His permission, and guides them to a straight path.
Surah Al-Maidah

Allah the Exalted said, `O son of Adam! If you mention Me to yourself, I will mention you to Myself. If you mention Me in a gathering, I will mention you in a gathering of the angels (or said in a better gathering). If you draw closer to Me by a hand span, I will draw closer to you by forearm’s length. If you draw closer to Me by a forearm’s length, I will draw closer to you by an arm’s length. And if you come to Me walking, I will come to you running
.Sahih Al Bukhari

“You will never give up something for the sake of Allah, may He be glorified and exalted, but Allah will replace it with something that is better for you than it.”
Narrated by Ahmad

Sayyiduna Abu Malik al-Ash’ari (Allah be pleased with him) reports that he heard the Messenger of Allah (Allah bless him & give him peace) say: “There will appear people in my Ummah, who will hold adultery, silk, alcohol and musical instruments to be lawful”
Sahih al-Bukhari(there is considered a difference between listening and hearing music , you can look it into that. Just so you know you don't HAVE to put your finger in your ears but there is a hadith where the prophet peace and blessing be upon him does just that)

Parts I and II

Thursday, 3 January 2013


She is screaming strange sounds
I unaware as the breath is stuck in her throat
These feet are running but it's too late
Her fate is breaking me piece by piece

Its been two decades of suppressed
Tears that no longer flow
She whispers supplications under her breath
Oh give us strength
She is breaking

Her pain has a way of
Rearranging itself from time to time
Her back, legs, head, stomach, arm , chest
Where it begins it will end
Little tablets and empty scans show
Nothing more, the eyes can't see

She is dying and I , I am
Rousing her from her sleep
They have hurt her in ways I cannot believe
Yet she is strong moving fingers rhythmically
Fulfilling obligations despite the knees that
Buckle under the weight of
Patience on her forehead
Grounded in hope

Her body is dying slowly
These eyes awake to hidden truths
Of the promises she so fervently believed

Narrated 'Aisha:
(the wife of the Prophet) Allah's Apostle said, "No calamity befalls a Muslim but that Allah expiates some of his sins because of it, even though it were the prick he receives from a thorn."

Narrated Abu Huraira:
Allah's Apostle said, "If Allah wants to do good to somebody, He afflicts him with trials."

Say: "I seek refuge with (Allah) the Lord of the daybreak,
From the evil of what He has created;
And from the evil of the darkening (night) as it comes with its darkness; (or the moon as it sets or goes away).
And from the evil of the witchcrafts when they blow in the knots,
And from the evil of the envier when he envies.

Surah Falaq

Say: I seek refuge in the Lord of mankind, 
The King of mankind, 
The God of mankind, 
From the evil of the sneaking whisperer, 
Who whispereth in the hearts of mankind, 
Of the jinn and of mankind.

Surah Naas

Wednesday, 2 January 2013

Self Harm

Your skin is sliced into
A thousand pieces of life
Fall into blood ridden palms
So this is it a sharpened blade
Pain that breathes with the limbs
Your blood is same colour as mine
But it is ultimately the soul that defines
The state of our twisted minds pushing
Towards an oblivion where the warmth
Of blood against the wrists is the only thing worth
Living an inferno, desiring ever more behind those eyes
Is such turmoil, blackness seeping into everything else her
Smile it's a lie , her life is the warm up before hell consuming
But never filled, never found, never truly lived or opened ears
To a sound thats calling your soul to eternity
There are scars on your heart that need to heal
Questions to be answered why, you and now and I
Beckon towards peace of mind uncut
A natural inclination , too much forgetting
Don't you remember, this addiction  of insanity
Your holding on for an answer
To an unasked question lost amongst the misery

And whoever turns away from My remembrance - indeed, he will have a depressed life, and We will gather him on the Day of Resurrection blind."
Surah Taha

Those who have believed and whose hearts are assured by the remembrance of Allah . Unquestionably, by the remembrance of Allah hearts are assured."
Those who have believed and done righteous deeds - a good state is theirs and a good return.

Surah Ar-Ra'd

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Tuesday, 1 January 2013

New Year

Dedicated to a revert

She is a quiet amble down paths
That are worn of footsteps so long ago when
Every moment of living and life was grabbed
Until suffocation, smiling , jaws begin to ache
To celebrate what she
Will never know

It is New Years Eve in the other room

Their is a great sadness on our souls
Of unfulfilled goals and untruths festering
Beneath failed attempts to rectify

I imagine what it was like to stand and call
Hoards of people, of friends and family
On the brink of hope for heaven
To speak so truthfully
With a heart filled with the love of humanity
Turned away from him

They were alone except
God watched from his throne
One step closer to paradise
To life and living eternally

Muawiyah bin Al-Hakam As-Salmi said: 
"I had a slave-girl who used to herd sheep for me. One day I discovered that a wolf had killed one of her sheep, and I'm a man from the children of Adam, I get upset like they get upset, and I slapped her in the face. Then I went to the Prophet who impressed upon me the seriousness of my act. I said, 'O Messenger of Allah, should I not set her free?' He said, 'Bring her to me.' He asked her, 'Where is Allah', She said, 'He is above the heavens.' He said, 'Who am I?' She said, 'You are the Messenger of Allah.' He said, 'Free her, for she is a believer.'
Muslim and Abu Dawud

, 'tell me, if I were to inform you that there was a band of horseman behind this mountain, would you believe me?' 'Certainly' answered the Makkans, 'to us you are above suspicion. We have never heard you utter an untruth.' The Prophet صلى الله عليه وسلم then informed the gathered Makkans, 'I am a messenger of warning, coming to you before impending painful punishment.... until you say that Allah is One.'
(I found this story narrated in several websites but was unable to find a source if some could find an authentic chain of narration it would be much appreciated)

Have We not opened your breast for you (O Muhammad ( peace be upon him))?
And removed from you your burden,
Which weighed down your back?
And raised high your fame
So verily, with the hardship, there is relief,
Verily, with the hardship, there is relief (i.e. there is one hardship with two reliefs, so one hardship cannot overcome two reliefs).
So when you have finished (from your occupation), then stand up for Allah's worship (i.e. stand up for prayer).
And to your Lord (Alone) turn (all your intentions and hopes and) your invocations.
Surah Ash- Sharh

And who is better in speech than one who invites to Allah and does righteousness and says, "Indeed, I am of the Muslims."
Surah Fussilat